Good things come to those who wait, right? I feel like good things keep coming & coming. I am feeling so blessed these days that I can hardly contain it. I mean, are things perfect sunny days & roses? No, of course not. We were never promised that. But I feel well taken care of by my Maker & so blessed. I have the most amazing & wonderful very-soon-to-be-husband in the world. He's the most loving and caring person on the face of this earth...I STRIVE to love with the passion & joy & consistency that he does every single day. He is growing so much as a person. I am SO proud of him. He is overcoming things each and every day. I look up to him and admire him SO much.

At church this morning we prayed together (Me & Steve) about our life, finances, and upcoming wedding. We've been particularly concerned about money, as most people are with the economy the way it is. And we got back to the house & you know what? Steve checked his bank account and had MORE money in there than before. Apparently his insurance claims, which we didn't think he would get back, came through!! I feel so blessed.

Maybe I'm starting to understand grace & blessings? I fail constantly. I am as imperfect as they come. Yet, God always takes care of me, abundantly. Why? I don't know. But that is where grace comes in.

Wedding is so close. Like 27 days. I have people coming out of the woodworks to love & help me during this time. I am the most stress free bride I believe on the planet...who has nothing better to do on her Sunday afternoon than hang out with her handsome fiance & set up a pool in the back yard. Thank you ALL for your help to all of those who are helping me. Thank you to God who always provides, blesses, and gives abundant grace.

moving time

Its fun moving time-yippie. have i ever mentioned how much I HATE moving?!? LOL

Well, thanks to great friends of Steve's today's loading wasn't as bad as a usual moving day. We got the Uhaul packed up in record time, and I didn't know HOW we'd fit it all into a 5 foot space that I had reserved on the U-Pack semi-truck. We got to ABF & started loading, and believe it or not, we got it ALL to fit in that space. Unbelievable.

Also, today was a great day of sorts. Gigi's test results for the cancer bloodwork were negative. Now, there is obviously some kind of mass on her pancreas, so they have to still go in & check it all out to be able to say 100% that there is no cancer, but we're very hopeful. I want many more years with her, its devestating to think of anything different. People can get annoyed & frustrated with other people, and also enjoy the heck out of their presence...but good times or bad, the thought of losing someone you love sooooo close to you is heart wrenching. I definitely had a little priority check inside of me these past couple weeks with that. Family is SO your lifeline. Don't ever take them for granted. Each breath, each day-is a miracle.

So, two more nights in Canada & we're gone & back down the the Coast. I am feeling guilt for some reason....like its because of me that Steve's moving away from his country. I mean, that IS the reason why....but inside I get such worries....like, when normal life sets in for him, and the honeymoon's over & the overjoyed happiness wears off...will he be happy? I know life isn't about being happy...and he's 100% committed to me...but I wonder if there will be a time that he regrets making this decision for me. I mean, can you really IMAGINE leaving your whole country, family, friends...everything you've ever known for a relationship?! Crazy thought. Sounds great at first, but when it finally comes down to it? Could you do it? I somehow know he really loves me. Because...in general...he'd probably rather live in MOST other countries before the USA--then again, I think most of us would rather, hehe.

I'm exhausted so I shall say goodnight...I may not be able to post again until after I get back home-if so, wish me well & pray for our safe arrival. I hope to see (most) of you all soon!!!!!!!!