moving time

Its fun moving time-yippie. have i ever mentioned how much I HATE moving?!? LOL

Well, thanks to great friends of Steve's today's loading wasn't as bad as a usual moving day. We got the Uhaul packed up in record time, and I didn't know HOW we'd fit it all into a 5 foot space that I had reserved on the U-Pack semi-truck. We got to ABF & started loading, and believe it or not, we got it ALL to fit in that space. Unbelievable.

Also, today was a great day of sorts. Gigi's test results for the cancer bloodwork were negative. Now, there is obviously some kind of mass on her pancreas, so they have to still go in & check it all out to be able to say 100% that there is no cancer, but we're very hopeful. I want many more years with her, its devestating to think of anything different. People can get annoyed & frustrated with other people, and also enjoy the heck out of their presence...but good times or bad, the thought of losing someone you love sooooo close to you is heart wrenching. I definitely had a little priority check inside of me these past couple weeks with that. Family is SO your lifeline. Don't ever take them for granted. Each breath, each day-is a miracle.

So, two more nights in Canada & we're gone & back down the the Coast. I am feeling guilt for some reason....like its because of me that Steve's moving away from his country. I mean, that IS the reason why....but inside I get such worries....like, when normal life sets in for him, and the honeymoon's over & the overjoyed happiness wears off...will he be happy? I know life isn't about being happy...and he's 100% committed to me...but I wonder if there will be a time that he regrets making this decision for me. I mean, can you really IMAGINE leaving your whole country, family, friends...everything you've ever known for a relationship?! Crazy thought. Sounds great at first, but when it finally comes down to it? Could you do it? I somehow know he really loves me. Because...in general...he'd probably rather live in MOST other countries before the USA--then again, I think most of us would rather, hehe.

I'm exhausted so I shall say goodnight...I may not be able to post again until after I get back home-if so, wish me well & pray for our safe arrival. I hope to see (most) of you all soon!!!!!!!!